Poetican

Morning Solitude

2011-06-26T10:39:00.003-05:00

Quiet morning just past sunrise
Lips sip African coffee
Nose whiffs Honduran cigar
Eyes see twenty shades of green in hostas, grass, oaks, pines, the fence
Ears hear deer hiding in the woods
Heart slows to the beat of welcomed solitude.

Recharge Cycle

2011-05-11T20:10:00.000-05:00

Bluish purple light lingers sixty minutes past sunset.
Half moon winks through new spring leaves.
Quiet, peaceful anticipation wraps around like a blanket before bedtime.

Day falls asleep smiling, waiting, resting,
Wading through dark nightly currents,
Relaxing, recharging before beginning anew at sunrise.

Storm

2011-05-01T10:51:00.000-05:00

Stormy weather rumbles through the valley,
tricks the senses illogically.
Howling wind, growling thunder,
explosive flashes of lightning
one minute,
dead calm the next.

Silence.
Motionless white dogwood blooms side by side with pink redbud florets.
A solitary bird on the feeder looks lost,
confused by the calm.
Startled when lightning, thunder and wind returns.

Rich Toast

2011-04-22T17:56:00.000-05:00

A distant blue ridge divides sky from ground.
Clear mountain air surrounds,
drifts across the veranda,
fills lungs, lifts spirits.

Afternoon spring sun shadow
saturates expensive red and pink drinks
that sit on the table between sips.

This is how the rich live.
The rich ignore how poor they are
compared to two soul-mates toasting their friendship.

April 2nd

2011-04-02T10:38:00.000-05:00

Cold cloudy damp day
Spring is late
She’s unpredictable anyway
Have to wait
Till she is ready to say
I’m here.

Naked branches tangle
and twist
Spider web angles
Moisture, mist.
Dew drops dangle
Yet next steps are clear.

Lingering

2011-04-02T10:37:00.000-05:00

I found this one on my computer, leftover from fall. Thought there was more to say but decided it’ll stand as-is.

Three bare trees overhang a flagstone patio
Two lone leaves linger from November
One lone man is reflected
In mist, fog, puddles.

Muffled Message

2010-11-04T20:17:00.000-05:00

Deep in the recess a voice screams
muffled words
Familiar but incomprehensible
Straining to hear the words
the message feels familiar
but no clarity
The tone is hope
optimism
Patience my son it’ll work out
Synapses don’t fail me now
because I need to know the words.

Haiku Triplet

2010-10-26T22:26:00.001-05:00

A small voice out back
Reminds me of something I know,
Something I relearned.

Things will get better
When I do what I must do,
What I have to do.

Action has begun.
The pros will battle it out.
I’ll get my life back.

Fall

2010-09-27T21:40:00.000-05:00

Shadows approach from different directions,
A chill caresses with no touch,
The fall voice speaks with new inflections,
Few words say so much.

Time slows as a recharge life prelude
Simple shades of yellow, red and gold
Fill the field of vision, enhance the mood.
Let fall rejuvenate your soul

Sunrise

2010-05-11T23:20:00.001-05:00

Two on the beach at sunrise
Face each other
Eyes gaze deep into eyes
Finger tips touch finger tips
gently
Wet lips caress wet lips
softly
Tongue tip traces teeth
slowly
A long, warm hug
Hearts beat in tandem
slightly faster
Sun on the horizon
Something else too.

Destiny Lesson

2010-01-02T10:44:00.002-05:00

I wrote the original version of this a long time ago and published this version of it on this blog almost two years ago. I am republishing it today for personal reasons but also because it seems especially relevant at the beginning of a year when we look back and ahead.

Why do we forget
lessons learned about
life
love
friendships
relationships?

Are we destined to repeat
our failures forever,
forgetting to comprehend the mistakes
that send us
on this endless
loop of broken hearts
and false starts?

Why can’t we move on,
not in failure,
but in anticipation of the success
our new knowledge can bring us
in new relationships
friendships
loves
life?

Heart Problems, Heartbroke

2009-09-06T16:15:00.001-05:00

Heart problems, heartbroke
Not the heart attack you call nine-one-one for
Heart problems, emotional stroke
Can’t live like this, won’t do it any more

My warm heart been cold from years of neglect
Now she says no one can love me like she can
never heard her say that or anything like it
where did that thought come from
Don’t trust the words, she can turn cold in a heartbeat
Is her change of heart real
or born of fear that she may lose me or what I am for her
I’ve been there for her, I’m there for everyone
Who is here for me

Heart problems, heartbroke
Not the heart attack you call nine-one-one for
Heart problems, emotional stroke
Can’t live like this, won’t do it any more

Built a life together for years, her life really
Sprinkles of my life dot the landscape
Woman of my dreams is a distant memory
Fooled myself too long, want to escape
I’ve been there for her, I’m there for everyone
Who is here for me

Heart problems, heartbroke
Not the heart attack you call nine-one-one for
Heart problems, emotional stroke
Can’t live like this,
don’t want to live like this
won’t do it any more

Woke Up Dreaming

2009-09-04T08:41:00.001-05:00

What’s the crime in dreaming?
In wanting what I want
In expecting I might get it?

Dreams of things, people, connection
Dreams, lost dreams, dashed dreams
I don’t get it.

Had what I dreamt of for many years
Woke up one year and the dream had died
Not the person, just the dream

A slow death, for me
But none for her, she says, crying gallons of tears.
I never dreamed that scene.

Maybe she was just made up in my imagination all along
And I just didn’t know it.
No dead dream for her; still loves me?
How was I supposed to know?
She didn’t show it
Till now.

Even if I believe, it’s probably too late.
Woke up with other dreams.
What’s the crime in that?
What’s the crime in dreaming?

If No One

2008-06-23T09:02:00.000-05:00

If no one's in the forest
when the tree falls
does it really make a sound?

If someone's home
when no one calls
does it really make a difference?

Hum Along

2008-06-19T20:53:00.002-05:00

I wrote this almost twenty years ago and just found it buried with some other things last night.

The fluid movement
of mouth, tongue and fingers
leads to squeals, sighs and sounds of joy,
applause if it's a good performance;
songs of love come
out the end of the
horn - e
flat, b natural, c sharp,
hear music;
blow it
hard,
make it sing;
jacket off,
collar unbuttoned,
hollar if
you like it,
hum along.
There's nothing
like good sax.

Where are You?

2008-06-15T13:19:00.000-05:00

Where are you?
You were always there for me
but now you’re not.
Where are you?
You taught me well,
but I always thought you’d be
here to see what I learned from you.
But you’re not.
Where are you?
Heaven: myth or reality?
If it’s real, you’re there,
tinkering in the workshop.
If not, then
where are you, Dad?

The Path

2008-06-14T23:59:00.001-05:00

Flying down a rocky path
full speed
on two wheels;
blind curves ahead.
What’s beyond?
More curves?
The edge?
An incline?
Do I really want to know
what’s on life’s path?
Or is discovery the fun part?

Mirror Image

2008-03-30T10:45:00.000-05:00

When you look in the mirror
who do you see?
The old man you are
chronologically?
The young man you wish
you still could be?
Your Dad? Your Mom?
“Is that really me?”

Searching

2008-03-23T11:25:00.001-05:00

Searching
for meaning,
truth
and a good cup of coffee;
for purpose,
a point,
and a place for you and me;
for balance,
laughter,
and compatibility.

Change Her

2008-01-10T22:59:00.000-05:00

Alone in a house full of people
she contemplates her life,
wonders why he wanted her
to be his wife
when all he wants now is to
change her.

Bold yet shy, she is
trapped in a life
sprinkled with joy but
full of strife,
unafraid to explain the dilemma;
afraid to act.

She is who she is
and he knew that then.
It didn’t seem to matter
way back when
but now all he wants to do is
change her.

Night

2008-01-03T23:23:00.000-05:00

Front porch
Sunset
Sipping merlot alone and thinking of you.
A toast
To hope, love
and dreams that can come true.
Clink.

Empty glass
Full moon
Contemplating life, love and possibilities.
A smile.
More merlot; sip, gulp.
Hoot owls, crickets, rustling trees.
Sigh.

The Color of Christmas

2007-12-06T22:47:00.000-05:00

I wrote this in the late 1980s. Even though it is not a happy poem, it is one of my favorites.

City sidewalks filled with holiday color,
silver bells, red and green lights.
Soon it will be Christmas Day.

A final holiday toast at work, then
dashing through the slow
traffic, heading for one more open mall,
frazzled, but cheerful last-minute shoppers
make the last stop before
an evening with loved ones at home.

City streets are now deserted except for a few
for whom the color of Christmas is blue.
No one stops. No loved one's shopped
for the one who has no home.
No toasting, no chesnuts roasting, no open fire,
Jack Frost nips at his nose,
toes and fingers. Out in the street
Jack Daniels' brown liquid provides
little warmth. No heat.

In the hours before it turns Christmas,
blue mood turns to blue skin.
The blue uniform and flashing red lights
arrive too late.
And all the world's gold and green
can't color this one's holiday scene.

The man in the red suit passed through this morn,
but no one in black mourned
the lone man's passing.

And amidst the gleeful noise
of girls and boys and clanging toys,
no one dressed in new shades
of purple, teal and clay
noticed the Christmas sky was gray.

Ocean

2007-10-03T21:18:00.000-05:00

Subtle and powerful
Endless vista ends at the horizon
Relentlessly methodical
Totally random

An edge
A bridge to everywhere
Sand melts into water
the hard line between them in constant motion

Sand
body
Ocean
soul

Life

Life In The Exurbs

2007-08-18T09:52:00.000-05:00

A dove coos,
dogs bark,
the highway hums
as dark
gives way to
sunrise.

Mowers buzz,
roses bloom.
A conversation about
last night’s full moon
leads to
neighborhood gossip.

Fresh tomatoes,
iced tea
and buy one
get one free
draws a crowd to
the nearby outlet mall.

Grill sizzles,
steak fries.
A lonely child
cries
as friends and family
mingle outside.

A dove coos,
dogs bark.
The highway hums
as dark
covers the cul-de-sac
miles from town.

Restless Quest

2007-08-14T21:47:00.000-05:00

A restless quest for a perfect life
dominates my thinking,
contradicts logic and reality,
leads to heavy drinking.
When one thing is right another is wrong.

A restless quest for a perfect life
is depressing,
unrealistic,
passive aggressive
and is dragging me around like a dog on a leash.

A restless quest for a perfect life,
marriage, kids, a trophy wife,
suburban estate, private schools
is a great dream for lunatics
and fools.

A restless quest for a perfect life
contradicts my
normal high level of acceptance
for life as it is.
What rhymes with acceptance?

A restless quest for a perfect life
bounces me on hard concrete
several times
and whacks me
into a brick practice wall.

A restless quest for a perfect life,
a stressless, messless …
This is a pointless
exercise in finding meaning
and purpose in life.

Purpose and meaning
will find me
when I lighten up
and discontinue
my restless quest for a perfect life

Status Quo

2007-08-13T21:25:00.001-05:00

Empty heart
hoping to be full again
Longing
Dreaming of time
Proximity
You.

Past
collides with present
Time and distance
face off
Status quo
No me and you.
Just me.
And you.

Lost

2007-08-12T22:25:00.000-05:00

Lost
seeking what isn’t there
longing to live my own life
not yours.

Alone
There’s a crowd here
but you don’t feel me
nor I you.

Waiting
for the right moment
to break free.
Not yet.

The Attic

2007-07-15T11:07:00.000-05:00

If the attic could talk,
what stories would it tell?
Old clothes, ugly ties;
what’s that smell?

Boxes of pictures,
a dusty bike,
“we might need that lamp some day,”
presents we no longer like.

If the attic could read,
what stories would it tell?
Old love letters, report cards;
a trombone we meant to sell.

A life of collected fragments
sit covered in dust.
If the attic could rearrange the randomness
what would it say about us?

Who Are You When The Lights Go Out?

2007-07-15T10:35:00.000-05:00

No need to smile.
No one is looking.
Be yourself for awhile.
No one is thinking
a depressed you even exists.

Maybe that smiley face the world sees
IS the real you,
even if your mirror reflects
a curmudgeon in the dungeon

Cry for awhile.
No one is looking.
Swim for awhile
till you start sinking
in a sea of the life you think you missed.

The happy person everyone thinks you are
might melt into the night
and turn sour and stale.
The real you can hide in the shadows.

Or live for awhile.
No one is looking.
Hike for a mile
through a mood of your making;
the optimistic mood on which you insist.

The positive person you once thought you were
can walk out into the light.
Life is a struggle
but you’re not alone when the lights go out.

The Color Of No Love

2007-05-26T14:06:00.001-05:00

A blank page stares back.
No words written,
none spoken.

White paper, blue mood,
gray solitude.
A red-blooded male,
prone alone
on black satin sheets
with a crystal-clear vision
of scarlet lace on tan skin.
Purple clouds of desperation.
White lightning flashes frustration.
Green with envy at another's rainbow.

Drifting off now ...
A few words written, still none spoken.
Murky green blue-gray melting ...
foggy ...
no spark, no flash ...
gray ...
what is ...
where ...
Page stares back ...
Fade to black.

Some new stuff ...

2007-05-12T19:09:00.000-05:00

I found a few old scraps of poetic writing today. I usually remember the circumstances behind what I've written, but a few of these completely elude my memory.

He'll Come Along One Day

2007-05-12T19:06:00.000-05:00

For you, it may not come
like lightning and thunder,
it may be more subtle
hidden under
blankets of caring and friendship.

Be he a knight in shining limo
or some guy on a bike,
he'll be both gentle and strong,
someone you like
as a friend first.

Open your mind
to the possibility,
then open your eyes
and you may see
him before you.

It'll happen.
He'll come along one day,
you'll open your heart
and hear yourself say
"I love you."

Last Call

2007-05-12T19:03:00.000-05:00

How can love just die,
and friendship fly
away?

How can all the closeness and
memories of warm, loving years
just stop cold?
With a handshake on the phone?
And no tears?
A call that ends because
there's nothing left to say?

How can two who would be
together forever
never speak to each other
again?

How can love just die
and friendship fly
and end in so much pain?

Love In The USA

2007-05-12T18:57:00.000-05:00

Love begins with infatuation
in the land of the free,
this wonderful nation
that guarantees
life, liberty and
the pursuit of a new lover.

What a wonderful situation,
eyes make contact
skin tingles
heartrates clumb
bodies connect.

They're not in love
they're infatuation.
They're in for
a roller coaster ride
up and down, in and out,
over and under
over and over
till dawn
or till it dawns on them
that they're infatuated,
not in love.
Then what?
Coney Island or
Fantasy Island?

In love in the
land of the free
and the home of
the lonely.

She Cannot

2007-05-12T18:56:00.000-05:00

She wants the men
she cannot have
and cannot have
the men she wants.

The men who want her
cannot have her.
She does not want
the Man who wants her.

Rhyme and reason

2007-05-12T18:49:00.000-05:00

Roses are yellow.
Sunsets are pink.
Writing is mellow
But sometimes I think

That poetry's silly
Some of the time.
I mean why place a word here
Just for the rhyme?

Tomorrow Will Be Better

2007-04-19T21:59:00.000-05:00

Sure it hurts today
dreams bashed
heart crashed
I'm smashed.
Scotch rocks
knocks the heartbreak out,
drowns the sorrow.
But tomorrow
will be better
won't it?
Anything's got to be better
than to be this bitter.
The glitter of infatuation
has washed down the drain,
but that scummy ring of pain
still lines the sink.

My life seems to have sunk.
And I'm drunk,
trying to remember why I think
that writing this stinking poem
will make it better.
But that inner voice that's helped me
climb out of this valley
before rings in my ear,
trying to get my attention,
trying to make me hear
it above the noise in this bar.

"You ARE
going to get over this
heartache,
and maybe even
the morning after headache.
Roll over, hangover!
Pain, pain, go away,
tomorrow will be a better day!"

Decide

2007-04-19T21:43:00.000-05:00

A loud laugh,
a piercing phrase;
unwanted words invade
and break the silence of this subway car
and void the isolation I try to create.

Talk talk talk. Stop.
Time for action.

Indecision is fog,
thick and dense,
limiting vision,
seeping into pores
and sapping the soul.

Decision clears the air
and carves a clean path
through valleys and hills
of indecision;
eliminates the unwanted.

Fifteen And Forty

2007-03-24T22:22:00.000-05:00

No one warned me
that at forty
it would be
just as tough to ask a girl out
as it was at fifteen.

That’s several lifetimes
ago and I’m many times
more confident, but
“no” is till no.
So I still hesitate to ask for a date
like I was still a teen.

Life can be so mean.
I mean why didn’t anyone warn me
that at forty
all the gaul I have at work
would melt away
every Saturday?
What’s this quirk
of human nature,
or is it just my nature?

Sure I’m Mr. Tough Guy
on the job
but after hours they just rob
me of my title,
these women I’d love to date,
and I hesitate
to ask them out
like I was still fifteen.

Chemistry

2007-03-24T22:12:00.000-05:00

Shy boy,
extrovert girl,
chemistry from the start.

Adolescent exploration
that seemed destined to last
ended.

Or should I say it stopped?
Paused, maybe.

Decades later sparks flew again;
and fly,
in dreams, for now.

After years of change and growth,
and miles of separation,
chemistry remains.

Destiny Lesson

2007-03-14T21:32:00.001-05:00

Why do we forget
lessons learned about
life
love
friendships
relationships?

Are we destined to repeat
our failures forever,
forgetting to comprehend the mistakes
that send us
on this endless
loop of broken hearts
and false starts?

Why can’t we move on,
not in failure,
but in anticipation of the success
our new knowledge can bring us
in new relationships
friendships
loves
life?

I Blew It

2007-03-14T21:13:00.000-05:00

I wanted to meet you.
I watched you as you
watched the band.
Our eyes met a couple times
and we both cracked those small,
self-conscious smiles that say
it's OK to meet,
but then we quickly looked away,
neither knowing what to say.

But some guy sure did.
He gabbed a mile-a-minute
with you and your friend,
mostly your friend.

And as the band took a break
I quietly left Club Blue
and went home alone again,
blowing a perfectly good chance
to meet you.

Time And A Dream

2007-02-20T22:08:00.001-05:00

Who could know
all those years ago
that we’d still be friends.
And in touch,
wishing to touch each other
like we did then,
and like we never did then.

Forty going on seventeen,
wondering what it might mean
to be together for a night, a month, decades,
touching hearts and other parts,
reliving youth
with mature understanding and experience.
But when?

We talk and write
well into the night
of what we’d do with time and opportunity.
You and me, we both agree,
would love like there’s no tomorrow.
But time and distance conspire against us;
so for now we’re a dream that doesn’t end.

Mere Love

2007-02-14T22:01:00.000-05:00

Was it all a dream?
What a soft, sensous loving night!

A cool, moist, misty fog
crept through town.

Your misty eyes looking down
helped me realize
we have such love for each other.
And we express it so well,
our tip-toeing fingertips,
our touching lips;
our hearts touch.
There's such
poetry in your eyes,
your body, your heart.

We didn't make love tonight,
yet we made love all night
sharing words over a drink,
sharing scaring scenes from that movie,
sharing the cool, moist, misty fog,
sharing our warm, moist lips and
loving, luxurious touching,
loving touching that is so much deeper
than a mere touch or
than mere love.

Soon

2007-02-13T22:43:00.001-05:00

Seagulls.
Salty air.
Relentless pounding ocean waves,
felt more than heard,
will be seen soon.

Sand.
Wind.
A pair of footsteps crunching on the beach
under the full moon
will be the only human sound.
.
Blump.
Blump.
Tires gently singing their song;
more of the old bridge behind now than ahead.
We’re almost there.

Reunion

2007-02-11T20:23:00.000-05:00

Twenty-five years later,
the Deep South,
still hot, wet.
Some things haven’t changed.
Her eyes are possessed by that
wicked smile from high school
times twenty
years of experience
we shared without each other.

Three hours later,
a hundred handshakes,
hi how-are-ya’s.
Many things remain the same.
Our questions probe each other’s
past, touching then and now;
pulsating
Zydeco fills the voids
and flowing bubbly undresses lingering emotion.

Twelve midnight,
dance floor empty,
tables clearing.
One thing is still the same.
We’re afraid to touch
certain parts;
the heart
and one uncorked bottle stand between us.
One question remains unanswered.

Thunder and Light

2007-02-11T17:27:00.000-05:00

Thunder doesn’t scare me
but I’d rather not be alone
when the lights go out.

They’re flickering now,
just like the lightning.

There’s no doubt
the power will be off soon.
It’s all clouds and rain out,
There’s no moon,
just the light from the lightning
and this old flashlight.

And the sound of the thunder,
that rumbling, tumbling, crackling
sound. I wonder
where you are tonight,
who you’re holding tight
as you franticly search for
your flashlight
till you remember you left it here.